2011 What's so alluring about being Sexy?

Why do we call ourselves sexy? what does that imply when one is a sexy person? Obviously it's right here in the name, sexy is someone that you desire to have sex with. This attraction comes on like a automatic laser beam consuming you with the desires to get near and get close to the picture you see as sexy. This is usually with someone that is quite striking in looks, one that has a certain picture, and is defined within the societies norms to have a conformed view of what is 'beautiful'. Life has come down to this, when the attraction is met by the other, the deal is sealed, and the next is to plant the seed. This is based on energies racing thru the body, and the obsessive pull that ensues to release this build up. The sexier the better as we are obsessed with pictures that get the juices flowing so to speak, I have been consumed with the pictures of others and living my life based on the way a person looks, quite pathetic, and an absolute waste of time and abuse to life. We as life are not pictures, we are not these energies pulling and blinding us to what we actually are here as directive beings.

Sex is a point of self exploration and expansion, I am pushing this point within my agreement, and letting it go for a while to see where we stand. I have been quite satisfied with my application, but there is points of desire and lust for another being that I have to persist to stop and do necessary self forgiveness to release the build up. I usually lust over others that are similar to my personality, so this is another indicator that I am a system as I act automatic to impulses coming thru my body, no actual self expression within life here as who I am in this moment, but within the mind in comparisons, desires, and ideas about what I want and how I will get it. Not being directive within the realization that I am not energy, if looked at in self honesty, I am abdicating self responsibility to get a rush for a moment in time in spite of the abuse of following energies/mind causes.

Thru stopping sex for a while now, I realize that I don't need sex, I don't really care about it in terms of once released the desire for it also is released, it has stopped being something I am determined to get when I want it. Here within walking to freedom from this quest for the sexy picture to have a 'good' time with, I can expand myself within this expression to thus be able to enjoy as a whole human being one and equal with my partner in being physical.  This is a walk of self understanding, self willing to stop, and exploring places you are not use to going. Quite a fascinating ride, I suggest test it out as well, can you live without sex for 6 months? 

Some SF on Post while Writing

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to fear my mom reading this because its about sex.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to be embarrassed that my mom is reading this because i write of my sex life.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to define myself by those who are within and throughout my world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to separate myself from my mom as one and equal.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to see myself as separate form my mom and feel inferior.

I forgive myself for allowing and acceptig to be inferior to others, and thus be inferior to myself.

I stop polarities, I stop fears, I stop defining myself by my world, I stop emotions of embarrassment. I stop the separation of my mom and me as one and equal to life.

2011 What's so alluring about being Sexy?

2011 Sex and How I have defined myself by this

This point of sex and how I have defined myself by it has been something I have been looking at recently as I have always seen it in a distorted type way. This distorted way has been based on what I picked up as a kid as sex being forbidden and never spoken about openly. This was the impression I got from most people, but sex was all over the place, in pictures, on tv, in movies, in magazines, and even in school. This seemed like you could not get away from the sexitized way of life and it being everywhere, yet within people it was looked at as a taboo and not accepted.

Now the point I am looking at is why did I accept myself to be defined by the pictures and tv shows in trying to emulate those who I saw, in my case women, as sexy and trying to be this for men. Dressing up in tight clothes, with my boobs being pronounced, and my waist being highlighted because I saw these features as what guys liked so I was going to flaunt what I got so I could attract a guy. This obviously showing that I didn't accept myself as who I was, but desired to sprush myself up to be 'attractive' for others. I am no longer accepting myself to define myself in such a way as that is completely submitting to inferiority and separation due to the picture I am presenting disregarding myself here as the life being that is not defined by anything, life is free as self is free from labels.

Within this walk of trying to see who I am as a women, I realized that the clothes that make women look sexy and I use to use to make myself look and feel sexy was the tight pants and shirts. Funny thing is that I found them to be extremely uncomfortable and immobile as they where made based on look not practicality, I like things that are loose and not so constricting. Most clothes are made not  seeing the common sense within clothes, but only looking at it thru the mind in desire, definition, and need for something outside of self to tell me who and what I am about. Now the shoes that I see women wear, not to judge them as if they are 'bad' or 'ugly', but they are extremely impractical such as 4 inch stiletto heels walking the halls at school, this is just not comfortable for the women or the feet that are stuck in them.

So what I am looking at is who am I within what I am wearing, who am I when I am with others, and why I am doing what I am doing in terms of definition. This can be looked at within self honesty and the reasons and solutions will be there. I am in the midst of facing this point of identifying myself by beauty, and not defining myself by anything as this is separation. I am stopping the limitations of my thoughts that I hold on to that define and categorize my world, but allowing to be open and more free to express who I am and allow myself the freedom to be comfortable within my own skin and live as a practical being. Practicality I am finding I very much enjoy because it makes life simpler, and I enjoy the simple things in life.

2011 Sex and How I have defined myself by this