2012 Self Forgiveness not wanting to be Fat/Pushing the Physical

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to fear being fat because i don't want my body to be out of shape having flabs within my skin where I am not able to see that I am athletic and fit looking.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to fear seeing my body become fat where my hips get big and my stomach gets flabby based on me seeing those who are fat as unhealthy and not able to move about in freedom.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to pity those who are fatter in body mass based on them unable to move about with freedom and be physical in anyway you please as with someone who is fit and athletic.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to judge those who are bigger within a polarity of  good/bad and thus desire not to be them.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to separate myself form others thru desires and needs that i look for in self interest.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to define life within pictures and thus separate myself based on an image and not embrace me here as all that I am is here as life. I am not separate from any being in this world.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to fear being fat based on me defining myself by my physical bodies physique and seeing this as a point where I am sufficient and I can depend on to call on if I need to impress another or need it in a physical demanding situation.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to try and impress another being based on the shape of my body.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to define myself by my body and the way others see me thru a projection of an idea that having a nice body others will like and be attracted to me.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to desire others to like and be attracted to me based on my body shape.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to depend on my body within and as physical situations that are demanding instead of considering my body one and equal as what I am doing and walk common sense to not compromise my bodies health due to my nature of being extreme and doing things to the extreme.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to push myself within extreme situations with my body based on the fact that I have defined myself as a 'great' athlete and thus challenge myself within the idea that I am great and thus I must prove my greatness by doing things that are challenging in a physical way.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to define myself by my physical abilities within the movement and motion as me as the physical and thus I  forgive myself for allowing and accepting to use the physical as a point to boost my ego within and as self interest because I am trying to get others attention and praise based on the difficulty of each of the physical situations I put myself in.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to miss me here as the physical body equal and one to all that is here as me and thus compromise the stability and health of the physical based on pushing 'risky' points in an attempt to gain attention because I feel I need this to prove to myself that I am great and that praise from others I am addicted to.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to compromise me as the physical body and not consider it equal and one to how I would want to be treated but push and force points that have no purpose but to boost my ego and gain an energy high thru the praise of others.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting to be addicted to the praise of others because I feel 'good' for a moment about myself not realizing that I am accepting and allowing this cycle of polarity to play out of good/bad within myself and others as me, and thus constantly compromise myself because I am not accepting myself and looking from validation in a point that has never been real, outside of me.

I forgive myself for allowing and allowing to compromise myself based on not accepting me here one and equal to all life.

When and as this point of self compromise comes in where I desire a body that is fit, I stop, breath, and speak that 'I am here one and equal with all' and then walk the point of change to stop energy movement and do what is best for me as the physical.

When and as I am in a point of desire or need to gain attention by doing something physically challenging, I stop and breath, and not allow myself to participate in energy games of gaining and need, but accept myself here one and equal with all and walk points of self enjoyment as self expression within and as me as physical movement here.

2012 Self Forgiveness not wanting to be Fat/Pushing the Physical